Taking a Break

[Jenaroni]

Dear Turnings Members,

I've spent all day thinking things over and have come to a very difficult decision, that for the betterment of my mental health, I am going to be taking a break. I've been struggling for quite some time with depression and feel that it has put my life into an out of control spin. The only thing that makes sense to me is to step back from everything that is not essential right now so that I can work my way back into a healthier state of mind. I will leave it up to Jair, Eve, Kay, and Tsvet to decide how they want to handle my threads/characters until I am ready to return. And to just give you all a better understanding of how I've been feeling, I think these song lyrics sum it up perfectly with a slight alteration to suit my situation.

Jenny

She Used to be Mine

It's not simple to say

That most days I don't recognize me
That these sorrows and this pain
That my past and its ghosts

Have taken more than I gave them.

It's not easy to know
I'm not anything like I used be, although it's true,
I was never attention's sweet center

I still remember that girl.

She's imperfect, but she tries
She is good, but she lies
She is hard on herself

She is broken and won't ask for help!

She is messy, but she's kind
She is lonely most of the time
She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie

She is gone, but she used to be mine...

It's not what I asked for
Sometimes life just slips in through a back door
And carves out a person and makes you believe it's all true

And now I've got you.

And you're not what I asked for
If I'm honest, I know I would give it all back
For a chance to start over and rewrite an ending or two
For the girl that I knew...
Who was reckless, just enough
Who gets hurt, but who learns how to toughen up
When she's bruised and gets used by a man who can't love
And then she'll get stuck
And be scared of her life going nowhere
Growing lonelier each day 'til something finally reminds her
To fight just a little, to bring back the fire in her eyes
That's been gone, but used to be mine...

Used to be MINE!!!

She is messy, but she's kind
She is lonely most of the time
She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie

She is gone, but she used to be mine...

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